it's been 3 weeks since i started my 2nd placement...not really coping well with it...seems like "walking dead meat" everyday to work...how can i like my work more???
had an incident @ work last week but everything seemed to be settled quietly and peaceful... like without a trace.....but will there be sth happen again soon???
been finally sit down and think quietly and review what had i done for the past 3 weeks.....i can conclude it with "messy" & "confused": schedule was quite messed up.... things with supervisor were totally messed up.... i was obviously messed up with myself....still confused about what i m supposed to do...confused about my role and position in front of supervisor & hospital staff....
i hate the fact that i had to be the "ugly person" i think like my mom said...only stupid ppl will "open mouth" and obviously i m the stupid one...how come i always am the one who got picked to voice out lei? guess i should shut up and things will be better??
i felt sorry for what i have requested though...sometimes i should leave ppl alone...not everyone wanna do things together....maybe afterall i m the one who couldn't read ppl's faces...or maybe i tried too hard get involved in everything and end up i m pushing ppl away....
was supposed to be happy about someone's big event....but totally not in a celebrating mode...not excited about it at all...in fact i feel...mad? upset? sad? i dont' know...just not something positive....
7 more weeks to go... hope things will be better....am i too naive?? shoud i stay put....shut up....not to be too involved....??
i m lost....
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Hm...what's wrong my dear? Involved in what? Update me la, we can juz share...I might not be able to solve things with you, but at least I can always be an listening ear ma.....ok????? support u ga!!!!! I'm lost with you indeed, hahahaha! :P Take care & miss youuuuuuuuu~~~~
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